All Time Low - Weightless
Turn a page, I'm a book
Half unread
I wanna be laughed at
Laughed with, just because
I wanna feel weightless
And that should be enough
Now I'm stuck in this fucking rut
Waiting on a second hand pick me up
And I'm over, getting older
If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I'm over, getting old
Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
Cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here
Make believe that I impress
That every word
By design
Turns a head
I wanna feel reckless
wanna live it up, just because
I wanna feel weightless
Cause that would be enough
If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I'm over, getting old
Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
Cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here
This could be all I've waited for
(I've Waited, I've waited for)
And this could be everything
I don't wanna dream anymore
Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year
And I've been going crazy
I'm stuck in here
Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year(it's gonna be my year)
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere(go nowhere)
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear(everything I fear)
Cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here
Recent Posts
Saturday, October 31, 2009
a light in the darkness
hari yang baru, masalah yang baru. gua heran loh kenapa sih kok kayaknya ga berenti2, dateng trusss =.= dan semuanya numplek jadi satu.
gw udah ga gitu mikirin lagi masalah yang paling pertama. masalah yang paling bikin gw kayak orang hun-hun sampe sekarang. tau hun-hun? kalo yang ga tau, itu kayak kleyengan. kleyengan itu apa ya.. hmm kayak elo abis bangun tidur kelamaan trus kepalanya pusing sama berat jadinya ga bisa mikir.
masalah yang tidak kalah ribet dan susahnya adalah dapetin kerja. pokoknya harus dapet 31 shifts lagi sampe paling engga awal bulan februari 2010. kalo engga, gw DEAD. ya bukan arti kata mati yang sebenernya sih, tapi akibatnya bisa fatal.
resume sudah tersebar ke puluhan restoran, aduhhhhh ayo dong ga lucu banget kan kalo semuanya masa ga ada nge-respons. gw butuh, sangat amat butuh kerjaan sekarang2 ini.
demi masa depan!
ya beginilah.. gw sedang dalam keadaan sangat terpuruk (ceileh bahasa gw..) serius.
tapi gw akan tetap mencoba buat struggle sampe semuanya kelar. gua yakin dibalik semua masalah2 ini pasti ada pelajaran2 yg bisa dipetik. wah gw ga nyangka bisa se-wise kayak begini hari ini. nah, mungkin itu salah satu sisi positifnya.
sekali lagi gw ucapkan banyak2 terima kasih buat semuanya yang udah kasih support..
dukungan dan bantuan anda-anda sekalian sangat bearti ;D
anyway, HAPPY HALLOWEEN DAY.
gw udah ga gitu mikirin lagi masalah yang paling pertama. masalah yang paling bikin gw kayak orang hun-hun sampe sekarang. tau hun-hun? kalo yang ga tau, itu kayak kleyengan. kleyengan itu apa ya.. hmm kayak elo abis bangun tidur kelamaan trus kepalanya pusing sama berat jadinya ga bisa mikir.
masalah yang tidak kalah ribet dan susahnya adalah dapetin kerja. pokoknya harus dapet 31 shifts lagi sampe paling engga awal bulan februari 2010. kalo engga, gw DEAD. ya bukan arti kata mati yang sebenernya sih, tapi akibatnya bisa fatal.
resume sudah tersebar ke puluhan restoran, aduhhhhh ayo dong ga lucu banget kan kalo semuanya masa ga ada nge-respons. gw butuh, sangat amat butuh kerjaan sekarang2 ini.
demi masa depan!
ya beginilah.. gw sedang dalam keadaan sangat terpuruk (ceileh bahasa gw..) serius.
tapi gw akan tetap mencoba buat struggle sampe semuanya kelar. gua yakin dibalik semua masalah2 ini pasti ada pelajaran2 yg bisa dipetik. wah gw ga nyangka bisa se-wise kayak begini hari ini. nah, mungkin itu salah satu sisi positifnya.
sekali lagi gw ucapkan banyak2 terima kasih buat semuanya yang udah kasih support..
dukungan dan bantuan anda-anda sekalian sangat bearti ;D
anyway, HAPPY HALLOWEEN DAY.
Friday, October 30, 2009
10 things.
Pagi-pagi udah nge-blog. Kemarin tidur hampir jam 3 pagi, hari ini bangun jam 8.30.
Ga tau kenapa beberapa hari belakangan ini, gw merasa kayak bukan diri gw sendiri.
1. Udah ga ada semangat buat melakukan hal apapun.
2. Tiap hari tulis posting yang ga penting melulu, seperti ini.
3. Tidur sukanya pagi-pagi. Padahal, sebelomnya paling ga bisa disuruh tidur pagi karna pasti udah tepar jam 12.
4. Jangankan ketawa, mau senyum aja rasanya susah setengah hidup. Biasanya, cengengesan.
5. Bangun tidur langsung buka laptop, cek email. Padahal biasanya facebook dulu.
6. Dulu kalo dengerin lagu suka yang agak kenceng. Sekarang, volumenya jadi kecil kayak semut lagi bisik-bisik sama temennya.
7. Biasanya suka nyanyi-nyanyi sendiri begitu setel lagu di itunes, sekarang diam 1000 bahasa.
8. Hari ini deadline tugas yang terakhir di semester ini, tapi gw sama sekali ga happy. Padahal biasanya suka tereak-tereak sendiri begitu selesai.
9. Jadi merasa benci dan kesel sama diri sendiri. Padahal biasanya narsis luar biasa.
10. Untuk pertama kalinya dalam 18 tahun hidup di planet bumi gw se-enek, se-benci dan se-marah ini sama orang lain. Rasanya pengen gw jadiin bebek guling, beneran.
Ya, semoga saja hari ini dan seterusnya, masalah-masalah gw bisa mulai menunjukkan titik cerah. Dan semoga saja, hari ini gw bisa kembali seperti yang dulu, ga amburadul kayak begini.
Keep the spirit alive!
Terima kasih buat semuanya yang udah kasih support :)
Ga tau kenapa beberapa hari belakangan ini, gw merasa kayak bukan diri gw sendiri.
1. Udah ga ada semangat buat melakukan hal apapun.
2. Tiap hari tulis posting yang ga penting melulu, seperti ini.
3. Tidur sukanya pagi-pagi. Padahal, sebelomnya paling ga bisa disuruh tidur pagi karna pasti udah tepar jam 12.
4. Jangankan ketawa, mau senyum aja rasanya susah setengah hidup. Biasanya, cengengesan.
5. Bangun tidur langsung buka laptop, cek email. Padahal biasanya facebook dulu.
6. Dulu kalo dengerin lagu suka yang agak kenceng. Sekarang, volumenya jadi kecil kayak semut lagi bisik-bisik sama temennya.
7. Biasanya suka nyanyi-nyanyi sendiri begitu setel lagu di itunes, sekarang diam 1000 bahasa.
8. Hari ini deadline tugas yang terakhir di semester ini, tapi gw sama sekali ga happy. Padahal biasanya suka tereak-tereak sendiri begitu selesai.
9. Jadi merasa benci dan kesel sama diri sendiri. Padahal biasanya narsis luar biasa.
10. Untuk pertama kalinya dalam 18 tahun hidup di planet bumi gw se-enek, se-benci dan se-marah ini sama orang lain. Rasanya pengen gw jadiin bebek guling, beneran.
Ya, semoga saja hari ini dan seterusnya, masalah-masalah gw bisa mulai menunjukkan titik cerah. Dan semoga saja, hari ini gw bisa kembali seperti yang dulu, ga amburadul kayak begini.
Keep the spirit alive!
Terima kasih buat semuanya yang udah kasih support :)
Thursday, October 29, 2009
CAPE
Masalah dari kemarin2 dateng ga ada hentinya. Kenapa mereka semuanya datang di saat yang bersamaan? A baru muncul tiba2 B muncul lalu C, D, E dan seterusnya. Bingung harus berbuat apa lagi. Mentok. Bener-bener mentok.
Cape. Cape. Cape. Cape. Cape. Cape menunggu hal2 yang ga pasti kayak begini. Rasanya pengen tereak sekenceng-kencengnya di gurun pasir atau di mana pun yang jauh dari keramaian. Pengen gw keluarin semua unek2 yang ada di kepala.
Kapan ini semua akan berakhir?
Kapan?
Kapan?
Kapan?
KAPAN?
Cape. Cape. Cape. Cape. Cape. Cape menunggu hal2 yang ga pasti kayak begini. Rasanya pengen tereak sekenceng-kencengnya di gurun pasir atau di mana pun yang jauh dari keramaian. Pengen gw keluarin semua unek2 yang ada di kepala.
Kapan ini semua akan berakhir?
Kapan?
Kapan?
Kapan?
KAPAN?
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
untitled
i just got a shocking news yesterday, actually hours ago.
not about someone died, not about natural disaster and not about this world, but me.
i can't think clearly after read that news. it felt like being punched by a hammer and suddenly 5 little stars appeared running on circle in my head, made me totally sick.
not much that i could did yesterday beside went to the kitchen and searching for foods.
that made me a little bit better at least, even though my problems are not yet solved.
i already did something, a lot of things perhaps, trying to fix the condition but i don't know if it will helps in the future.
deep down in my heart, i know and i am sure there will be always a way out for each problem that i face.
the only thing that matters is just time.
i will keep waiting until the right time is coming. nothing else i can do.
if you read this posting and wondering what is the problem that i have, well, thanks for caring, but i'm not going to tell you because i am too afraid to type those words.
i need supports to make my spirit keep burning.
wish me all the best so i could write the next posting bringing some good news.
that will be more than enough.
not about someone died, not about natural disaster and not about this world, but me.
i can't think clearly after read that news. it felt like being punched by a hammer and suddenly 5 little stars appeared running on circle in my head, made me totally sick.
not much that i could did yesterday beside went to the kitchen and searching for foods.
that made me a little bit better at least, even though my problems are not yet solved.
i already did something, a lot of things perhaps, trying to fix the condition but i don't know if it will helps in the future.
deep down in my heart, i know and i am sure there will be always a way out for each problem that i face.
the only thing that matters is just time.
i will keep waiting until the right time is coming. nothing else i can do.
if you read this posting and wondering what is the problem that i have, well, thanks for caring, but i'm not going to tell you because i am too afraid to type those words.
i need supports to make my spirit keep burning.
wish me all the best so i could write the next posting bringing some good news.
that will be more than enough.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
The Falling Star
so much problems going on
in the middle of happiness
i am trying
trying to control myself
trying to stand by myself
but again, i am failing
i am the falling star
who used to be in the sky
shining so bright
in the middle of darkness
always be your friend at night
the one you can trust
the one you can wish on
no matter what happens
but now, on the ground
ugly
rusty
useless
i am a mess
a total rubbish.
in the middle of happiness
i am trying
trying to control myself
trying to stand by myself
but again, i am failing
i am the falling star
who used to be in the sky
shining so bright
in the middle of darkness
always be your friend at night
the one you can trust
the one you can wish on
no matter what happens
but now, on the ground
ugly
rusty
useless
i am a mess
a total rubbish.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
what a nice and tiring day
i've never imagined i would get these new experiences like what i've got today. ah lebay deh. i had my lunch shift for a Jewish wedding at work. it was quite interesting cos yeah it's new for me and a bit different from our indo style of wedding. the celebration went so smooth from 1 until 5 o'clock. i didn't pay much attention to the ceremony cos i was preparing the tables but i could clearly saw the celebration. there was a band and everytime the singer sang a song, almost all guests got on the floor and danced like crazy. well, it was pretty chaos but that was what it called a party.
i worked pretty long today about 8 hours and it was so so so tiring. we served canapaste for one hour, the other hour for first lunch, the other hour for the second lunch and the other hour for dessert and coffee or tea time. my feet couldn't stop walking. my mouth couldn't stop smiling. my hands couldn't stop serving. but that was okay cos this is the real hospitality industry babyyy ;D i'm enjoying it.
and before i went to my workplace (i changed my mind to come earlier), i was stopping by at federation square cos there was a festival Indonesia. well, i was quite dissapointed cos i didn't see many food stalls there but yeah at least i could bought pempek and es teler. i saw many bule wearing batik and it was so hilarious. i also saw anak2 kecil bule ikutan lomba kerupuk yang digantung pake tali kayak 17an. oh em gee SO FRIKIN CUTE. pengen cubittttttt ;D gregetan.
i worked pretty long today about 8 hours and it was so so so tiring. we served canapaste for one hour, the other hour for first lunch, the other hour for the second lunch and the other hour for dessert and coffee or tea time. my feet couldn't stop walking. my mouth couldn't stop smiling. my hands couldn't stop serving. but that was okay cos this is the real hospitality industry babyyy ;D i'm enjoying it.
and before i went to my workplace (i changed my mind to come earlier), i was stopping by at federation square cos there was a festival Indonesia. well, i was quite dissapointed cos i didn't see many food stalls there but yeah at least i could bought pempek and es teler. i saw many bule wearing batik and it was so hilarious. i also saw anak2 kecil bule ikutan lomba kerupuk yang digantung pake tali kayak 17an. oh em gee SO FRIKIN CUTE. pengen cubittttttt ;D gregetan.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
foody
dirumah, sendirian, di tengah sore yang masih sangat amat cerah ini. kedua housemate gw pergi, Monsu ikut shourt course bikin kue dan Onee kerja. masih berkutat dengan assignment yang hampir kelar tapi belom selesai-selesai. tapi entah kenapa ditengah-tengah mengerjakan assignment, gw kepikiran ayam originalnya KFC yang ada di indo. semua makanan fast food disini cuma jual chips, burger sama coke. ya mentok2nya chicken nuggets lah. tapi ga ada satu pun yang jual ayam goreng ala indo itu. trus, seketika gw melihat semua barang yang ada di deket gw berubah jadi ayam saking pengennya makan ayam2 itu. tapi mendadak gw juga jadi berpikir "hmm kasian juga ya jadi ayam, hidup buat dimatiin." tapi mau gimana lagi, abisnya daging ayam enak sih. sabar, sabar, sabar. one month to go.
haha entah kenapa gw jadi bersemangat ngomongin soal makanan ketimbang kerjain assignment2 itu *sigh*. hari ini ada festival indonesia di Federation Square sampe besok malem. tapi kayaknya gw baru datengnya besok sekalian abis pulang kerja yang kebetulan deket banget sama tempat acaranya. gila, udah ga sabar gw liat makanan2 indo nya. rasanya pengen gw ambil semua tanpa bayar alias gratis weheeheh *evil laugh*.
dan semakin hari gw makin berasa kalo ternyata makanan indo emang enak, tiada duanya. ayam tulang lunak, mie tektek ala abang2, sate padang pake lontong, ayam pop, gulai ayam, rendang ayam, empal, berbagai jenis ikan yang semuanya enak2, ketupat sayur, lemper, bacang, gorengan abang2, pempek, siomay, batagor dan masih sangat banyak yang lainnya. tapi gw baru tau setelah gw pindah kesini kalo katanya abang2 gorengan campurin plastik ke minyak ya supaya gorengannya tambah garing? well, itu membuat gw il-feel sih dan semangat gw buat makan gorengan jadi berkurang pesat. tapi lihat saja nanti apakah gw akan tetap makan gorengan? yeah i think so ;D
baiklah sepertinya tulisan dengan topik makanan ini harus segera disudahi. waktunya mengerjakan assignment.
haha entah kenapa gw jadi bersemangat ngomongin soal makanan ketimbang kerjain assignment2 itu *sigh*. hari ini ada festival indonesia di Federation Square sampe besok malem. tapi kayaknya gw baru datengnya besok sekalian abis pulang kerja yang kebetulan deket banget sama tempat acaranya. gila, udah ga sabar gw liat makanan2 indo nya. rasanya pengen gw ambil semua tanpa bayar alias gratis weheeheh *evil laugh*.
dan semakin hari gw makin berasa kalo ternyata makanan indo emang enak, tiada duanya. ayam tulang lunak, mie tektek ala abang2, sate padang pake lontong, ayam pop, gulai ayam, rendang ayam, empal, berbagai jenis ikan yang semuanya enak2, ketupat sayur, lemper, bacang, gorengan abang2, pempek, siomay, batagor dan masih sangat banyak yang lainnya. tapi gw baru tau setelah gw pindah kesini kalo katanya abang2 gorengan campurin plastik ke minyak ya supaya gorengannya tambah garing? well, itu membuat gw il-feel sih dan semangat gw buat makan gorengan jadi berkurang pesat. tapi lihat saja nanti apakah gw akan tetap makan gorengan? yeah i think so ;D
baiklah sepertinya tulisan dengan topik makanan ini harus segera disudahi. waktunya mengerjakan assignment.
