:) :)

No, no. This post is definitely not going to be a sad long story about me. I guarantee that. That's because I'm bringing good news here. Yeah yeah yeahs! Maybe not a really good news for you, but it's driving me crazy for the past couple of hours. I got job at Melbourne Town Hall. I'm now speechless. Don't know what to say but I surely am know what to do. All I have done since 1pm today was just smiling until NOW. hehe note the capitalization of the word now. I'm smiling at this very second when I wrote this.

I am so liking the decoration of the overall building. It's very antique and artistic. Makes me like I'm in the UK or somewhere else in Europe. I didn't really do interview session with the manager. I got his number from one of my classmates the other day. And I called him and told that I want to work there if there are any job vacancies available at the moment. And voila! he directly asked me to come on the spot in less than two weeks. Now I just want to rolling on the floor and jumping on my bed. Super duper excited! Really can't wait until the day comes.

so not recommended post to read.

Well, I hope this post is not going to be another long crap story. Hopefully.

I've been trying my best to be Miss-the-happiest-girl-in-the-world until today. I try to laugh as much as I can even tough I'm not in the happy mood. I eat whatever I want to eat even though I'm not hungry. I go wherever I want to go with whoever I want to be. I did those things just for the sake of my happiness because I know life's short.

I've been waiting for something way too long. I was once planning just to give up because I don't think I will have enough strength to hold that back for a longer time. I feel like every time I try things, it keeps failing, failing and failing. hhhhhh. No, it's not about finding soul mate, boy friend, husband for future life or that kinda thing. Maybe for other people it sounds cheesy and lame but for me it's a big deal. The thing that I'm worrying is about finding the right workplace. The place where I should be at. Otherwise I'll be feeling so useless and pointless being here. I know, maybe that's not the end point of what God is wanting to give me but the lessons being learnt. But, I am too tired now. Literally tired.

And that's not the only problem that I'm having right now. There are still so many problems and I hate it when they come all together at the same time. It's like digging a long long never ending hole. It's so dark until you can't see any lights at all from anywhere. I got so many personal problems that I actually want to share to lighten my burden but I can't and not allowed to. Now everything seems so complicated. I don't know how to start and which problem I need to sort it out first. I'm just as small as an ant in this gigantic world.

I've never felt this kind of feeling in my entire life so far. I think this is the lowest turning point that I've ever had. Also, I've never written anything like this before. I think this post looks so disgusting. But thank you for your time to read (if any), regardless how many persons out there who is willingly to read this blog from an unknown person like me. I am not aiming in viewers. I just want to share my problem here. Because, blog is always besides me, where I'm lost in this world and nobody really cares about anybody else. That's a pathetic fact but it's so real. There's nothing else I can say beside thank you very much to my dearest blog and people who are reading this blog for keeping me company through my ups and downs.

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Oh gosh. Look at my writing! I just want to laugh now. Feel like an artist or what with my words. Pretty much lots of bullshit there. Not the real bullshit I mean. Just a little bit maybe? hmm.. Okay now, I need to stop this before I am going to tell you another-long-boring-crap-cheesy-lame-story. I'll try to get through all of these problems and get over it ASAP. fingers crossed. Nighty night, peeps!

Tuhan, aku bingung harus berbuat apa...
Tolong berikan aku petunjuk...
Rasanya cobaan ini terlalu berat...
Selalu datang silih berganti...
Jangan biarkan aku menyerah, Tuhan...
Karna sebenarnya aku tidak ingin menyerah...

Viva 20:20 !

Officially my new favorite band nowwwww.

one, they are British.
two, they are still young.
three, lovable songs.
fourth, they are charming.
fifth, i like their genre.
and sixth, how come they have beautiful hair cuts?!

check these out for their music videos~

first single -
http://www.youtube.com/user/twentytwentyband#p/u/14/aCPQdlicL8I

second single -
http://www.youtube.com/user/twentytwentyband#p/u/8/i6Osf1EXb7o

third single -
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JXuIciR6KA4

fourth single - Worlds Apart
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DhmZ1cXH2bM

I've been knowing them since last year but i was just like oh okay, they are british, charming and their music is just uhmm so so. but now after their third and fourth single, i am positively liking them. Go 20:20!

fingers crossed

current REAL obsession:

1. Get a job in a big hotel ASAP.
2. Go to Mt. Buller or Falls Creek this june or july.
3. Lose more weight, about 15 kg to go.
4. Go to Bali this december.
5. Get student exchange to Europe.


short, simple but i really mean it.

MADU!!

Pagi-pagi udah ngelap kulkas gara-gara madu gw tumpah. swt =.="
baru mau ngambil madu, eh kok ada cairan kuning dimana-mana. ternyata madu gw tumpah!
madu gw tumpahhhhh!!
sekali lagi, MADU GUAAA TUMPAHHHH LHOO
biasanya gw kalo abis bangun tidur langsung minum madu sama lemon juice. waktu itu pernah tumpah juga sih tapi ga seheboh ini. lagian madu disini rese, jarang ada madu yang bisa diambil pake sendok. jadi kemasannya yang model tutupnya di puter gitu dan kalo ga kenceng ya udah mbleber kemana-mana. apalagi madunya kan udah tinggal dikit jadinya gw taronya di tidurin gitu kalo ga lama turunnya.
jadilah gw keluarin isi kulkas yang kena tumpahan madu dengan sangat setengah hati. mulailah gw gosok-gosok dan lap-lap kulkas sama lantai dengan perut kosong karna baru bangun.
udah malah lengket lagi. dingin juga karna itu kulkas.
lihat saja madu, saya akan balas dendam!! huahahhahahaaahhaha *evil laugh*

AMI = Antara Melbourne dan Indonesia

Yahhhh hari ini Monsu for good deh ke indo. hiks hikss :(
tapi mau gimana lagi, setiap perjumpaan pasti akan ada perpisahan.

ga bisa masak bareng lagi :(
ga bisa pergi bareng lagi :(
ga bisa gosipin orang lagi :(
ga bisa makan ying thai or nando's bareng-bareng lagi :(
ga bisa tereak-tereakkan di rumah lagi dehhhhh :(

kita-kita sekarang lagi meringkuk kedinginan, Monsu di sebrang sana lagi enak-enakkan cuma pake kaos sama celana pendek..
kita-kita pengennya minum air yang anget-anget, Monsu di sebrang sana lagi makan es krim..


ya tapi walau bagaimanapun juga, rela ga rela, suka ga suka, kita harus merelakan kepulangan monsu ke tanah air tercintanya. I just want to wish you all the best in life in indo. sukses terus ya Monsu!! good luck for everything..

love this.

Beberapa hari ini kerjaannya makan diluarrrrr terus. gendut gendut deh. kamis malam makan di kinchi grandma, jumat siang makan di nando's, sabtu malem makan di ying thai sama beli es krim freddo, trus hari ini malemnya delivery pizza hut. wah, mantep abis. gw sampe ga berani liat timbangan beberapa minggu belakangan ini. jangankan disuruh pegang, nyebut namanya aja gw udah kleper-kleper. blom lagi besok gw mau masak-masak bareng di apartemen temen gw.

Berhubung Monsu di melb cuma 2 minggu dan bentar lagi mau for good ke indo jadinya harus dipuas-puasin makan di luar bareng sebanyak mungkin. kalo ga kapan lagi, mumpung lagi ada kesempatan. lupakan sejenak masalah gendut, banyaknya lemak yang masuk ke badan sama uang yang agak terkuras, yang penting kan quality time together nya. bukan begitu?